Thursday, January 2, 2014
Day 4 on Fast Metabolism Diet- Maybe all the 1 Star Amazon
Anyhow, the one-star reviews were just what you would expect. Anger, anger anger. "I followed this to a T, and it didn't work and I gained weight! I'm beginning to think that Dr. Oz is a filthy liar, and just swindles women into buying weight loss products that will never work!!!" Somehow, these one star reviews soothed my nerves. I suppose misery DOES truly love company. I wanted to "accompany" all of these people in their failure. That's right. I wanted to fail. In my brain, failing seemed to much easier. Why is that? Why would I POSSIBLY want to spend a month doing a strict diet, only to fail? I think I know part of the reason. I felt like, it didn't work, then I could go on with business as usual. I could feel sorry for myself, I could be angry and resentful toward my body and the way my clothing was fitting. I would stay in my wretched comfort zone. No one would really judge me for being there. I would say, "yeah, my body just WILL NOT lose weight" and other women would nod their heard sympathetically and talk about how THEIR bodies are totally the same. They understand. They're happy there with you. Misery loves company.
On the flip side, if I had great success, I would have to keep going. Success breeds success. It puts the pressure on. It says, "Wow! Good job! You DID IT! I wonder what ELSE you could do?" Success wants you to reach greater heights. It makes demands of you. It wants you to never enter back into your comfort zone again. When you want to wallow in self pitying, it demands that you get over yourself and go change the world! Oh, it's so much work!! Can't I just stay here in my little hidey hole???
Speaking of positive and coming down from the edge. Here are my stats for today.
Michelle-Day 4-183 pounds. What the junk! That's actually down NEARLY 3 pounds from yesterday? Oh, no! Success! Rearing its ugly head!!